when people hear sports illustrated swimsuit, they usually think bikinis, glamour, and that old line, “it’s all about the male gaze.” but as i experienced firsthand, there’s so much more happening behind the bikini. it’s about empowerment, community, and showing up for yourself, often solo, while leaving with new friendships that last.

i share what it was like to navigate the competition, grow past my nerves in social situations, and embrace confidence in a high-pressure environment. plus, the unforgettable moments of meeting mj day and camille kostek. this episode is for anyone who’s ever assumed what they see is the full story and for anyone curious about what it really takes to show up authentically.

the swimsuit was temporary, the confidence and friendships lasted.